Hello To All!!! It has been an incredible time in my life and the lives of others since I last got a chance to share with you. I know it has been a few weeks since our monthly fast and prayer day on December 1st but I have to share with you what a day I had. I could not believe what was happening to me all day, I mean all day. This was one of the worst days I had in a long time. Before I even got out the house the devil got started on me. I got up that morning and prayed getting ready for the fast and prayer of the day. I felt at peace and wasn’t worried about any challenges. Why would I worry that I would have anything other than a blessed day? I would be focused on prayer today along with at least 1800 plus other sisters in prayer throughout the country. God is watching over us and he would be protecting us from anything that would hinder us from getting our work done. (Well that was what I thought when I woke to get ready that morning!) Well I was disillusioned, big time!!!
I had not even brushed my teeth yet when the first argument with my husband started. To tell you the truth, I can’t even remember what we were fussing about. But whatever it was it ticked me off something terrible. I do remember that I had gotten so mad that I wanted to punch the crap out of him (well I wanted to but I ain’t crazy – LOL). But you can be assured I said a lot of ungodly words that I am sure the good Lord above must have been looking down and saying, “No she didn’t!! I know my little praying mourning dove did not curse her husband out like that!!!”LOL!!! The thing that came over me was incredible. After I realized what I had done, I couldn’t even apologize because the devil was in me and I just didn’t feel like it. Now I finally got dressed and felt that the rest of the day has got to be better because we are fasting and praying today. Well, I barely got out the door, now I am into with my 21 year old son. I must have fussed and cussed at that child of mine for at least a half hour. It got so bad that while I was giving him a ride I had the nerve to pull over to fuss even more. In making my point, I was banging my hand on the console in the car and tore the side of my hand up. My hand is still sore today. The crazy thing, if I am remembering correctly, all he did was ask me for a ride. But I am sure it must have been more to it than that (LOL)!!! As the day progressed it did not get better. My attitude was terrible. I haven’t acted this ugly ever. I did not feel like praying. I got ticked off because I was hungry. My staff/coworkers would not even think about approaching me for anything. I guess I must have had that look on my face that said you all just better leave me alone today. Today is not the day! This was the most bizarre thing that has ever happened to me. I thought the more I focused on prayer the more peaceful my life would be. Don’t get me wrong! I don’t mean that problems would not still be coming. I just felt that the more I prayed the better I would manage myself when stuff like that presents itself. This was totally out of character. I don’t even use curse (cuss) words but my goodness I had a good vocabulary of them flowing that day. I was so messed up that day I had convinced myself that the devil had nothing to do with the way I was acting. I even remember saying, don’t you blame your craziness on the devil. God ain’t even going for that one. I was truly crazed out of my mine.
As the day came to an end, I told Karen about my day. She explained to me that the devil was all over me that day because he knew that God had a mission for me. There is something so powerful about prayer and the devil knows that. So he attacked me right in the midst of my assignment by God. He was trying to distort my beliefs to the point I convinced myself that my actions on that done was my own foolishness. Thank God for his mercy and grace. Thank God for surrounding us with people to help you stay focus and on track. I just thank God for being a good God for allowing us to go through this craziness and not hold it against us.
I wanted to share this with all of you because I thought it was so very important for continuing on the mission of what we are doing in the Mourning Doves Movement. Just because we are focusing on prayer with a mass of people doesn’t mean we are exempt from having bad days, even on a focused fast and prayer day. Please remember that we are still in this world and we are human beings. Things are going to happen. The most important thing is to remember what to do when it does come our way. We need to drop everything and send up that prayer. If we get too weak or not in the mood to pray, call on your praying sisters and we will send that prayer right up for you.
On another note, I just wanted to share that the New Haven Community and I have lost a good friend, Ben Hunter. He was an Icon in our city and great supporter of young people. In learning about the circumstances around his passing, I want to remind all of us to check on our love ones often. No matter what your relationship is with your loves, good, bad, or indifferent, find a loving way to stay in touch. The way you treat people will have a reciprocal affect on what you will receive. In this day and age, no one should have to die alone. When you find someone without family and friends remember to just drop by and give a kind word or just send a note. I have a good friend that reviews the sick and shut in list that our church creates every Sunday and she send notes to all the individuals listed. I can only imagine how wonderful the individuals feel to receive a note from someone they don’t even know. That someone took time out of their lives to think of them. It is those little things that are so priceless in a person’s life. Please continue to pray for those you can’t get to and find a kind word to say to someone everyday. Plan to purposely make a difference in someone’s life everyday.
In closing, I am excited about the days coming for the close of this year and the awesome year that I know God has planned for 2011!!!! I want to thank all of the members of the Mourning Doves for being a part of the movement. Don’t forget that the first Mourning Doves Fast and Prayer of the Year will be the first Wednesday in January, which is January 5, 2011 from 9 am to 5 pm. We are planning an early mourning prayer to get us started, location to be announced. Please continue to place your prayer requests on the Mourning Doves blog at www.mourningdoves.wordpress.com. We also encourage you to right comments and give us suggestions on how to proceed with the movement. We are asking that you invite us to your church and let us share with your congregation. We can be anywhere anytime. Thank you for being there with us!!! On behalf of our praying sisters, I want to wish you a blessed holiday and a very blessed New Year.
Your sister in prayer,